Well its now or never.....

Ok now it is official.. It happen and im glad it turn the way it turn out... I moved a step forward and leaving all the rest behind, the past that i held on for too long... Moving in front is always never easy especially this one.. Before this i thought it would be foolish to take that shot,to take that chance and putting everything all on the line for something that is still is still seems uncertain and griped by the fact that that it might be it could not meant to be.... But it was then,when i realise that out those sleepless night alone ,the insanity that was creeping within me,devouring me from the inside,was not because of thinking over something like that,it was simply because there was the lust in myself to change,to break free from what was holding me back all this while and for once in my life taking a chance to find the true happiness i really have been looking for.. I was a illuminous person once, a person who just would blend in with the shadows and let other people take the control of my life...No complain, Not a whisper, Just wandering and following what the people want from me, No question,Filled with unvoiced doubts....Just a simple shadow...








But as i glaze into her eyes,i saw that i could be more ,as enthusiastic as it sound, to be a person that i could actually step away from the dark,away from life expectation and start to write my own life and dreams,to be different,to be loved and to able give love in return,to be stronger and to be better person with a solid reason,to give the best to person,even it means give up your own life for it...





Dear,u made me realise that i didnt want to just dream alone, i want to share those dreams with you, i know i have made mistake in the past,not only to you but the closest to you and me,and i want to take this opportunity to say im sorry, i shouldn't been so pathetic or scared...Im sorry if i feel grief to those are close both to me and her, i could have save the trouble, i should have not tested the trust in friendship over something like this,(to those who gets it,im very sorry for the scars and cuts i cause cause i never dream of doing that to you guys.Im so sorry)....



Well,I wrote this as a mark that i would really step out from the world that i saw nothing but empty shadows, For this day onward, i left all that behind me and move on, and live my life that i should have, with the greatess girl that i have ever met.....





Cya...